The Explorer of Fire spins her flaming orbs through the darkness, the poi making a pattern of dazzling light that arcs and loops and falls. Her movements are as sensuous and sinuous as a serpent, and just as mesmerizing. She has practiced long hours to make her movements look effortless. But the skill of fire spinning requires her to be balanced, coordinated, flexible, and daring. She wears the mask of a fire goddess; in her trance state, perhaps she becomes one. As the flames whoosh! around her, she enters the silence at the center of the circle. Fire dancers say that none of them escapes being burned at least once. Fire consumes . . . fire transforms. Fire is dangerous, erotic and hot. The fire spinner’s ally is Salamander, who offers the gift of assisting us through our transformations or re-energizing us when life seems devoid of passion. Gaian Tarot : Joanna Powell Colbert
Well thank goodness for friends! I was truly in my shit and Julia offered me a “what is your scary “Tarot reading. And man, was I ready for it!
I have been in lock down, scared to move either way for some unknown fear that was clawing in the pit of my stomach.
Feeling melancholy and having overwhelming thought processes
Questioning everything I stand for. Everything I think I am.
Struggling with life path and unsure of my journey thus far.
This spread, Unlocked the answers on a cosmic level.
My scary: Is fear of Shining or being me. I know right? We both had a cackle at that!
Fear of owning my medicine, I mean truly owning it.
Coming out of the cave to offer the medicine to all, rather than offering it to a select few. Dulling myself down so as not gain attention. Trying to contain it rather than sharing it.
In the Merlins cave connected to all the elements and walking with the ancestors I am at peace, Owning it and not afraid.
Bringing it out and being it, without the safety of the cave is the scary. Coming out is the scary.
Past life issues highlighted with the spread was fear of persecution, fear of judgement from others. Wanting to “fit”, wanting to be liked and normal..( Ohh The horror)
Fear of being me essentially.. Fear of showing my power, fear of being ridiculed for my light. Fear of being labelled or branded a show off. Fear of being noticed.
As I reflected on this at certain key points in my life it was clear : What a injustice I have done to my self over the years to make people comfortable in their own power by diminishing my own.
I am a Healer, Nurse, Wise woman, Seer, Witch, Death Walker or death doula, Medicine woman and I walk between the worlds. I have always, for as long as I can remember.
I’m the one holding your blood and guts in my hands. I'm the one kissing you as you take your last breath.
These are my gifts and the cosmic slap is to start bringing them out of the cave and use my gifts with out fear of reprisal. Without fear of Judgement.
Walk my walk and talk my talk.
Julia thank you for creating this “scary “cosmic spread and trying it out on me.
It illuminated areas that I didn't want to look at and thought I had it sorted.
This spread holds a mirror up to your face and there is no escape. It shows past life and shadow, to the deepest locked away feelings/memories held at the core. But then its shows the way to step out and embrace all you are on this path we call life.
Love ya work Sister ♥ x
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The Explorer of Fire (I call her the fire starter) fell out of the deck as I was reflecting on my reading. Her message is clear
Bird Tribe Vibe :)
"For once you have tasted flight you will walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards, for there you have been and there you will long to return".
~ Leonardo da Vinci
Sometime reflecting on your practice kicks you in the ass fair and square.
Been mainstreaming it, much to my horror! The healings whilst good and awesome (hey, it’s my blog and I can write that :D )
Felt somewhat lacking?? Totally from my perspective, not my clients.
Was questioning why I felt a little bit on auto pilot, when I rely on intuition and claim no two healings are the same.
Well wouldn’t you know it, they started becoming simular. I noticed it and went WTF???
That’s not how I roll? Bit devastated really.
Then that epiphany moment and some clarity from my daughters helped me see what was going on. It appears that with my family and certain people I know, I am truly me when it comes to healings.
I'm taking power animal retrievals, Shadow work, removing blocks and attachments. Journeying and in full trust of the medicine.
I've been Main streaming it, yes utterly and totally. Why ?
I was pulling back from my clients and not trusting what I was doing. I wasn't giving them all of me, for fear of scaring them with the way I work. Also probably a fear of being judged too if I am completely honest. A couple of special clients have lifted the veil during the healings and have seen me in my glory. One freaked out and the other thought it was awesome.
I can be scary when in the true healing Zone. I walk between the worlds. I can Chant, my voice is not my own. My Drum will take on a life of its own. My reflection Changes in the dull light and sacred ambiance of the room. I have often looked up and seen my shadow reflected on the wall and it’s not me. I have 1000 arms and hands. I see serpents next my head, helping me raise the Kundalini.
I see the shadow and where I need to illuminate it with light. I see the grief and feel the pain. And when I’m in full witchdoctor mode, it’s hardcore.
Time to be hardcore with every healing that comes my way. No more pulling back. I trust that those that need this type of healing will find their way to my door.
Time keeps on slipping into the future……
How do you know you are doing what you are meant to be doing? Does fate step in and lend a hand? Or do you decide? Or is a little bit of both?
DESTINY : don’t you love that word. ?? I have a love/ hate relationship with it!
On one hand I believe in it and on the other hand..it can go fuck itself .
Being a Healer or in the healing industry : destiny does funny things to you. Either its busy~ busy or bust.
Not many can live on a income made by healing's and readings ( I say not many, because some do and do it well)
Most substitute with a primary job a couple of days a week or look into other avenues to make a small living.
Not to mention , when people want to see you and your not up to it. That’s a hard one because you want to help.
I've learnt to trust when I'm not firing on all cylinders to say no, because it would be crap anyway and not worth it to either party. It’s a fine line to walk.
As healers, we gotta be pretty centred to do the work we do.We need to look out for ourselves on the etheric and physical planes as well as we do for others.
So when I'm not busy doing healing,readings or nursing I have started to recognise that I'm doing major work on myself.
In these times I am cosmic baby! The astral is going off. For the past week every night I am dreaming about mass healings.
I reckon I have seen over 100’s of people for healings, I'm just doing it, rocking it in the dream Astral Realm.
Removing attachments, healing under trees and outside in nature.
Usui (founder of Reiki) payed me a visit. He was overseeing the healings under the tree. He showed me new symbols.
Goddess no wonder I'm exhausted!
So in conclusion, it doesn't matter whether you are busy on the physical at the moment.
I think you have to take the quite moments as a growing and evolving and give yourself a break. Yes we all need money to live and that is where we probably fight the most with ourselves, particularly when our services are slow.
Issues of life path/Destiny come in, questioning and you really have to believe in yourself around these times and what’s being shown to you.
I am being shown so much and learning more about who I am and what I can do.
I have given up trying to work it out. But I am at peace with it. I'm where I am supposed to be, that’s when destiny is my friend and I love her.
When we are not at peace and I try to force it. That’s when she can go fuck herself.
Have Faith, Have Patience and most of all believe in all that you are.
You will always come back to you; your soul knows it, even if you don’t
I went to see a beautiful soul today. I've know Nat for about 3 years or more now. She is down to earth , warm,funny and a kick ass Healer. I booked her in and said work your mojo! I had a Crystal Light healing and Chakra balance. It was delightful,insightful and can't recommend her highly enough.
Her Business name is : Inner Brilliance Holistic Therapies
I was shocked at how out of balance I was. I mean Major!! As Nat worked her magic, I could feel all my systems realigning. Then I floated off somewhere whilst she worked on my etheric body. AAhhhh Lovely .
I had woken up this morning with ~ Fly like a Eagle on my lips..not thinking nothing of it. As I drove to Nat's Place, I saw a large wing dip over the Hills beyond. Eagle..Nice. On my way home I saw 3 ♥
The last one fly parallel to my car for about 3 Kilometres. I could see him clearly. As I watched and tried not to crash my car, I released more as Nat had started the healing/Balancing process of my way out of whack etheric field. She balanced my ass.
Thankyou Nat for a magical and much needed Healing.
Note to self
Don't be shit and wait too long for the next one
Whoah ! Any body else out there feeling it? FARKKKK is about all I can say about that at the moment!
There is such a feeling of melancholy around at the moment, maybe its a collective feeling ? There is unresolved grief and intense feelings about letting go. Feels like a sadness has settled. Maybe its because we are in the middle of winter in the southern hemisphere? hmm Maybe?
Future fear mixed with regret. Have been copping it via my dreams. And its not for me only.
I am offering sessions to deal with grieving. There are many ways we grieve, it's about loss in all it's shapes and sizes. The death or ending of anything around a situation or person is so very painful , but in our busy world we tend to move forward quickly. Either by choice or are forced to by circumstance. Not giving ourselves a chance to properly grieve.
I have been feeling weird about writing this..but seriously, my ass has been kicked on the cosmic plane.Pushing me forward to open sessions in healing around grief and death in all its various forms.
A healing around these feelings can make it easier to let go.. not saying it will forever be healed. It's just a acknowledgement of the scar that makes who you are today.
All the colours of the spectrum, Say Your name , wounds and all ~ honour every fucking bit of it .