I find myself waiting for the dark...Twilight has always been my favourite time of the day.I always watch the sunset. 
Lately I've been waking at the most odd hours and just going for a wander in the dark. 
The peace and the night sounds soothe my soul.


It wasn't always like this , when I was younger ~ I was petrified of the dark.  As a child I would see and hear things. Call them ghosts or whatever.... It scared the shit out me. I would hear my name being called and voices. Going to the toilet in the middle of the night was the worst, even with the lights on. I would try not to look in any reflective surface...because something was always be behind me.  

This continued, as a teenager I started dreaming about events that would come true in the next few days. They were not bad things but I was freaked out as fuck.
I was about 17 when I prayed ( can't remember to who?) for days, not to see, not to hear.
It worked...sort of. It wasn't as in my face. 
 
I never stopped sensing energies of places and things that happened in the past and sometimes future. I didn't know what it all meant.

I'm talking about the 80's...no internet. If you wanted to know shit you went to the library and there wasn't much around about esoterica.
I remember reading Dolores Cannon :Conversations with Nostradamus: His Prophecies Explained. All I remember from it, is that I wasn't crazy. 
I didn't talk openly about it. I just shit myself every night....

I know I'm not the only one that experienced this, we just didn't talk about it.

I talk to friends, my age now that had experiences like this...we have all gravitated towards the occult. To understand. So now it makes more sense and is not as scary.

Children all have the ability to see the unseen. We all do, sometimes we embrace it , sometimes we don't. 

So back to the dark. I welcome it now and have for a time. My Husband calls me the vampire. My son calls me the lurker haha. I walk around in the dark and if someone dares put a light on, I hiss. 

I still have random and weird shit happen when it's dark. The difference is, I know more about it.

I'm not special or important for this to happen to me, we all have these stories. Ask someone, they might tell you or share an experience.

 This dude said it the best.

"If you comprehend the darkness, it seizes you. It comes over you like the night with black shadows and countless shimmering stars. Silence and peace come over you if you begin to comprehend the darkness. Only he who does not comprehend the darkness fears the night.
Through comprehending the dark, the nocturnal, the abyssal in you, you become utterly simple. And you prepare to sleep through the millennia like everyone else, and you sleep down into the womb of the millennia, and your walls resound with ancient temple chants. Since the simple is what always was. Peace and blue night spread over you while you dream in the grave of the millennia'.
Carl Jung, The Red Book

A lot happens between dusk and dawn, It's the time of the void. The dark, the Underworld.  It can still be a scary place, if you let it be. Our minds from learned experience can associate it with scary shit. I know I did. Once I faced my fears, it seemed less spooky and more beautiful.
Rock on 
Bec 
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Hag stones are everywhere when you look! A Hag stone is a naturally formed hole in a tree/rock that if you look through, you can see the other side, most people say it's  a portal into the fey world. It's definitely a  portal regardless.

Have a look around and I'm sure you will spot one. I like to put my thumb and index finger together and form  a circle to look through it. It's like your own little spy glass.

When the scenery is vast, you may miss the subtle. Hag stones can bring that energy in to focus.

I've been sitting in the void and contemplating. Still stirring the cauldron as it's still brewing. I'm learning everyday.
There's more to come, at least that's what I feel. I'm keen to get it up and going but also no. There's so much going down with everyone...to add another wanky fucking online space/...yeah just nah.
There is no point, just for the sake of it. 

The last time I ran a space in person was quite a while ago in Spotswood. It came in  like a lighting bolt and I had the whole thing down in 30 mins...4 weeks worth. It was clear and concise. 

This a different energy and it's going to be lifetime of learning/ unfucking  /death work /shadow as fuck/ occult practises/ critical thinking /creativity/intuition and hag/ witch bitch energy.

Above is my intent to those that want to come and sit with me in an online space.

That's what I want to bring when I open it up. 

Finding your shadow and loving that motherfucker. Finding your light and appreciating that badass bitch.  The beauty in death. Seeing and feeling what's right for you, regardless of what other people think.

And I think the biggest one....Not being an entitled asshole because you consider yourself spiritual.
 
Maybe we might all learn/understand  some shit through the process of being together, about ourselves and others.... before we die.


“We’re beings toward death, we’re two-legged, linguistically-conscious creatures born between urine and faeces whose body will one day be the culinary delight of terrestrial worms.”
― Cornel West

Bec 
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Awesome spread from Cartomancy_spreads on Insta, look them up if interested, Full credit to them and Tarot_nerds, I didn't come up with this spread. They also spoke about the mystical and magical properties of the poppy seed, which is not included in this post.
Edit: It's a Tarot spread Called The Poppy seed Tarot spread.( Not a deck)
Lot's of insights. 
Bec 
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Ever feel stuck or just meh....There's always energy to deal with! A lot of times it's just a build up of shit.
Your's and everyone else's.Witch work to clear your energy or space can be elaborate or a simple fuck off into the universe. Sometime I pull out the big guns, as in do a actual ritual to send the energies back to where ever the fuck they came from and release my own energy from bindings, mine and or someone else's.

The trick is feeling comfortable with witching it your way. Sometimes we are so deep in the poo that it takes energy to even think about it. I believe that a uncrossing spell is really good way  to get out of your own way/head. To clear the decks and start afresh. If you are scared of strong words, like hex's and curse's that witches like to use. Just remember it's just a word and energy. It only has power over you if let it. I believe people throw shade at each other all the time, intentional or not. I also believe that we throw shade at ourselves too. Particularly when we are low ..a lot of self doubt talk and ripping strips of our hide because of expectations. 

This is quite a simple one( shit witches unite !!!) Do your own search and see if you if like more elaborate or simple.

There's also recipes for uncrossing oil. It's interesting because I had some uncrossing oil and used it years ago.....A lot changed, it was like someone took the blinkers off. I was looking for it this morning and couldn't find it. It's super powerful and I don't use it lightly,  maybe I wasn't ready for the changes that it would bring? I trust that this  one was for me today. Trust your intuition and intention. Play around, but always respect the magic.
Bec
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Her Kind
BY ANNE SEXTON
I have gone out, a possessed witch,   

haunting the black air, braver at night;   

dreaming evil, I have done my hitch   

over the plain houses, light by light:   

lonely thing, twelve-fingered, out of mind.   

A woman like that is not a woman, quite.   

I have been her kind.


I have found the warm caves in the woods,   

filled them with skillets, carvings, shelves,   

closets, silks, innumerable goods;

fixed the suppers for the worms and the elves:   

whining, rearranging the disaligned.

A woman like that is misunderstood.

I have been her kind.


I have ridden in your cart, driver,

waved my nude arms at villages going by,   

learning the last bright routes, survivor   

where your flames still bite my thigh

and my ribs crack where your wheels wind.   

A woman like that is not ashamed to die.   

I have been her kind.


Anne Sexton, “Her Kind” from The Complete Poems of Anne Sexton (Boston: Houghton Mifflin, 1981).
Copyright © 1981 ​

​Feeling the wildness...... 
Bec
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Hey Witches and bitches :)
I've been in the underworld for a bit, digging up nuggets. 
I thought I'd share a collective reading here. I Just asked a general question, what do we need to know?

This card is from the Seasons of the Witch Samhain Oracle by Lorraine Anderson &Juliet Diaz, and Illustrated by Giada Rose.

Interestingly The Veil appeared, she was reversed, I turned her upright for the pic. I don't usually read reversed cards...but she wanted to be read reversed. 
It makes total sense, Mercury and copious amounts of planets are Retrograding at the moment.

The Veil is thin and our Northern Hemisphere friends are turning towards Samhain on Oct 31 st more commonly known as halloween, we down south are  getting ready for Beltane on October 31st exact on November 7, 2021 2:50PM.

When I think of the Veil , I think and feel of a time and space in the in-between. I love the in-between by the way, but it's not always clear.
 

It can be tricky, did you just see that or are your eyes playing tricks? Are you seeing what you want to make yourself feel better? Or to justify a behaviour or some one else's behaviour?These questions come up when transversing the in between. It's not quite clear and  you either have to go up into the stratosphere or journey lower into the underworld to get your answers and clarity.

If you look at the card, the candle is out.. Descending into the underworld towards the dark maybe?But the place she has just come from is dark, so maybe she's heading towards the light? See what I mean ..Tricky!

This is a card of shadows and light...A in the middle card. Now is not the time to decide anything.

It's sitting with what you know and trust instinctually.

If there is trickster energy around, know it for what it is, a pain in the ass, sent to confuse. Are there people being dodgy around you? Talking shit about you  or are you the one being dodgy? It's ok either way, just know this is the energy.

Dead smack in the middle. It's a 5 card....4+1 = 5 in the tarot it's half way through your journey ( The court cards to reach the 10 of fulfilment)

The pic I took, looks different from the actual card. In the card there is just a darkness behind the woman...In this pic I see shapes behind her,Guides or deceased loved ones maybe? I also see the line of darkness. Her demons maybe? The trickster? Or It could just be the camera? haha Shady as fuck!!!

As you transverse the thin times aka the veil, journey well and know that sometimes the best thing we can do is nothing.
 Bec x

Ps
The Hurdy Gurdy man is in full swing.....one day I'll tell you my trickster encounter with this song and the world :)