I was lucky enough to go see Conversations with Nick Cave at The Melbourne Town Hall, last night with some cherished friends. Fuck me, it was epic.

As we sat there, waiting for the man to come on stage, the lights dimmed and his melodic voice spoke  "Steve McQueen " that featured in "One more time with feeling".

I cried, silent tears running down my cheeks as Julia touched my knee, in acknowledgement of the powerful spell of words that touch your soul.

I know we weren't the only ones that felt it......in the blood, guts and motherfucking bones. 

Ya' all know I'm a huge fan of his music, have been for decades. Now they say you should never meet your hero's, because they are likely to disappoint. Fair point. No one is perfect. Expectations fall short....

Last night was so far from that, Humble, Realistic and Honest.

Truthful, insightful and straight out legendary.

The prophet. The mystical motherfucker  Nick Cave 

I was acutely aware that at the Melbourne Town hall last night, there was a mass healing taking place on so many levels. It was everywhere, in the questions asked and the responses given.People stated it. Humble as ever, it was returned.
 
It was like a flow of reciprocated awesomeness and connection. No bullshit.

​Pure
No judgement
Hilarious
Sad
Profound


When he played his piano and sung , it continued.

Clarity and confirmation on a  existential level.

It wasn't supposed to be a spiritual experience, but tell that to the people there.  

Or Maybe it's just me? Every-time I see Nick Cave and the BadSeeds, it's a spiritual experience for me personally. I come away healed through the words and  music.

Forever a fan of the spell, o deeply woven.

"Because someone’s gotta sing the stars
And someone’s gotta sing the rain
And someone’s gotta sing the blood
And someone’s gotta sing the pain"

Steve McQueen ~ Nick Cave 

Well, well, well 2019 already!

The build up was enormous! Christmas and then the wait for the new year. That weird in-between time.Nothing seems to happening and your stuck in state of.... hmmm it feels like "nothingness" and anticipation.

Normally a good time to reflect on the year to come. This year felt different however, it was almost like the future was saying: Hey, you'll be alright, don't sweat it.

It can be a hard thing to do, trust. You're being asked to trust in something that hasn't happened yet.
On a collective level I get it..the future is unworkable, things change. Our actions can determine the outcome. 

Which brings me to reading tarot as I've had a few requests for Tarot readings.

You can only see what the cards are telling you. The ultimate decision comes back to the person, always. It's called free will. 

Reading tarot can be tricky. I'm talking about what you see vs your own ego.

It can be so easy to believe your own bullshit and project onto others.

I've had it done to me by readers.

A lot of the time, it does come from the heart and a genuine need or desire to help/assist someone who is in pain or needs answers.

I've also argued with readers,who have adamantly told me future predictions and basically when I questioned the outcome ,became wounded  and insulted.

The need to prove a point in a reading is just childish.

But that's where it gets sticky. A reader should be motherfucking Switzerland.

We are taught/ trained through books, gurus and workshops that we are little mini oracles, here to save the world and the humans. Seriously!

I'm pretty much self taught, but have read a few books. Have seen the outlines for some workshops and it leaves me questioning.

I don't know everything when it comes to tarot...far from it. There is so much to know and feel around Tarot it's endless, like the cosmos.

To me there is nothing worse, than someone telling me: You need to do this or that.

My inner rebel comes out to play,I don't like being told what to do.
I'll listen to the advice then make my own mind up, for better or worse.

Man, I argue with my spirit guides in my dreams when they are trying to tell me what to do..so yeah good luck with that one.

I try to catch myself with the terminology to rule it out completely, I've caught myself saying these words too. Arggg and it always feels horrible and insulting.To me and the person receiving. 

Some people like being told what to do and how to do it. Freewill is not a option, they want you to tell them.And I think that's where it gets blurry.  

It's is a service, it's advice.It's not a platform to spruke your own beliefs on how someone should do life. It's not about being superior and think you know everything.

I think everyone deserves to undertake their own freewill and sovereignty.

​It's how we learn and grow, from mistakes. 

I really think it's the terminology and mindset that needs to change: the "you need to " advice need's to fuck off.

Rephrase it 

Remember where the Tarot come's from : It's the Occult, meaning hidden. It's the arcane, meaning mysterious and understood by few.

That's how I see it. The future isn't written, it's and under the mysteries of no law/rules and time.

We can predict, but it can change. We can advise, but freewill comes in. You can only read what's in front of you at the time of reading. 

The only certainty of this life, is we are all gonna die one day.

​Rock on 
Bec