Martyr /Heretic

Lady Luna Full Moon Pic by me through a telescope <3

​​Aquarius &  Eclipse season is here Yay! 

Hope everyone got a chance to see the super, blue, blood moon last night!
(If you didn't, here is pic from Melbourne;Australia. When she was full ,before the eclipse )



I know in parts of Europe they will not be able to see it.The energy will still be there though, just because it's hidden, doesn’t mean you won’t feel it. The lead up to it was intense. 


When the moon was in cancer ,before she transited into Leo I was melancholy and then when she moved into Leo I was pissed off, the lions roar was deafening. Such is the life when you live by lady luna cycles!
 I know that sounds ridiculous, but if chart your emotions by the stars and moon…fuck me.
 
There has been so much cosmically happening this year already and we just moved into the second month of the year…head spins
 
Christmas and the new year was blur,questioning if it happened? Like legit!
 
Before Christmas ,I made plans in my head of what I wanted to to do in  this year of our lord 2018. The focus was definitely coming from a place of I gotta do more spiritually.
The pressure of being a healer/death worker/tarot was getting to me. And I felt I needed to do more, obviously I was taking way too many drugs or not enough. (joking of course)
 
What a crock ! Because I was happy doing none of it. The martyr in me was activated…it’s always there. Every job I’ve ever had, has been one of service. A sense of duty.
From serving in pubs through school years, to becoming a personal carer and then nurse/ healer. Still in service.
 
Wanting to help people and being altruistic is definitely a part of it .

But last year held some big teachings.I closed down the FB page and decided I wasn’t playing there anymore. The spiritual world was leaving a bad taste in my mouth and was I looking out at it, rather than within.
 
Change comes through really looking at yourself and questioning the emotions and feelings.
 
There is always doubt and ya know the universal signs can just fuck you up even more, cause ya gotta decode that shit!
 
 
Albert Einstein is broadly credited with exclaiming
 
“The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results”
 
Other verifiable evidence of the quote's original authorship come from:
1.  Rita Mae Brown's 1983 novel, Sudden Death, published by Bantam Books, New York p.68 (attributed to Jane Fulton)
 
 
Before people with mental illness, get all up in my grille
This, I believe is not about a legitimate diagnosis of insanity
It's not meant to be taken literally
 I believe it's about us all on the merry go round.
Day in day out and not getting off it to change the pattern.
 
So I wanted to change the thought processes and my ingrained need to be responsible and serve
 
Ohh I went there. Lots of cellular memory and  patterns  from life times past and all connected to this crooked path.
 
I had my solar return chart done by the star witch Mikailah
www.mikailah.com/
IT was Brilliant!
Mapped through the stars and planets of my choice to return  through the galactic gate.
 
I explored more through the human design and found my path to be (no surprises ) The martyr / heretic
 
It’s all about Bless you /fuck you in one breath
 
Eternally searching for the truth, wanting to share with the masses what I’ve learned
 
“The 3rd line profile is driven to experiment with certain things or put themselves in situations so they can have an experience from which they extract truths
After synthesizing the impact, they then share the results with world or at least their local community. Because society judges some experiments as failures the 3rd line carries the moniker of Martyr.”
 
 
 
“The 5th line kicks in to share the results of these experiments/experiences in a projected way, The 5th line is driven to create this change, often geared toward changing the behavior of others. This projection also carries an absoluteness to it, as in “I know this is right.”  However since this energy is projected, it needs to be invited. People don’t want change unless they are ready for it. If the prognostications of the 5th line are not invited then the 5th line person can feel the oppression of rejection or the insult of being ignored. This is why the 5th line carries the moniker of the Heretic.”
 
 Interesting stuff!
 
So to top it off I’m in my Chiron return too
 
The wounded healer
 
Yep......
 
Like I said earlier ,cosmic baby
 
This year is all about me, as you can probably tell from the post !! haha
I’m not doing any readings/healings/tarot this year
 
The only work I will be doing is in service to death and the dark mothers: The keening Circles with Julia and Kaggi.
 
It feels so good to step away from the service of healing/tarot to others
 I don’t know why, maybe it will return? Maybe it won’t?
 
I’ve learned one thing: If you feel you need to do it just out of responsibility, it’s not real or truthful and probably ego driven
It's Gotta make your heart sing
 
Then you know you’re on a winner
 
Rock on
 
 Bec

Woke up with all the feels of the bloodhound gang <3 In the bestest way xx

---