As we enter 2017 and leave the 2016 behind , thoughts of whata shit year come to mind for many people
2016 was a completion year, in numerology it was a 9 year. 2017 is a 1 year , a new beginning year , so to speak.
The theory is what you have learnt over the past 9 year cycle , you can now put into practice.
So ? What have you learnt?
As I reflect back, this energy for me personally, has been around since 2011 niggling and preparing for the 9 year.
Everything I have learnt and still am learning was exposed in 2016. Nowhere to hide anymore. Shit was reflected back at a defcon 10 level
Some of my most epic moments I have 2016 to thank for.
Whilst I was amongst it, it was hard, at times kicking and screaming like a banshee but in the process of going deep, 2016 allowed me that.
Massive clearing and unfucking moments.
I’m still not clear what the next step is in my journey, but I have a better idea: no regrets
The uncertainty has dissolved and am open to whatever may come as a gift of the number 1.
I reckon we have all put in the hard yards and cosmically the power of 1 is already working
So 2016 fuck you/ thankyou very much from the bottom of my gracious and humble heart for the lessons you bestowed on me.
Hail and welcome 2017
I remember a time, when I was searching daily
For that place where I belong
For that place where I fit in
I thought I finally found it within the “New Age’
You see I sucked as a catholic. Always in trouble and the dogma didn’t make any sense to me whatsoever.
I remember it clearly when I found the divine feminine in a patriarchal religion
I got into so much trouble one day, for what I can’t even remember?
So being a kid I went to the place where we were not allowed, out the back near the incinerator.
It always dumbfounded me that no one was allowed there …because there was a statue of Mother Mary holding the Christ child.
I was alone and held her hand and talked to her…railing against the bullshit of catholic “rules”
I told her I didn’t understand
I told her I didn’t believe
I told her I hated the church
Whether it was just getting it all " out "so to speak or I really had a connection to a higher spirit, I don’t know but I felt so much peace at that moment and a knowing that everything about me was ok.
I wasn’t the devils spawn as the priests had told me.
My god wasn’t all fire and brimstone, like they wanted me to believe, he was love and from that day me and the almighty have been ok
I denounced religion that day, I was 13
FWD to later years…..still searching, enter the
Accepting, passive ,love and light…yeah I could do that ( so I thought).
The deeper I got into it, the bigger the cracks and me back to square one.
Where the fuck do I fit?
Again the dogma and the rules, or guidelines
So I went from hell and into the light
And I still sucked as a New ager
I was still the outcast and the perceived dark motherfucker
I remember asking a Reiki Master about the negative or shadow
She physically recoiled from me, and denied it
"Don’t bring it" in was her frantic response
I cast a shadow the day apparently and other lover and lighters stayed away from me.
I went outside and sat my ass on some grass and smiled
I was righteous in my own knowing and I knew I could never fit in there either.
It was another religion
Masters and slaves
Filled with dogma, rules and regulations
Mind control to take you away from your own sovereignty
I found no truth here, no belonging, just like the Catholics preaching but with a different face
They wanted you to forget your own innate power within the natural law.
We are not separate from the natural law, we are a part of it
To me, all forms of religion are control
Even the pagan or earth based practices ~ which I would say, I closely align to
I have stopped trying to fit in
I am a free spirit, a rebel and non conformist
Authoritarians love me …not
They do their best to make me conform from corporations like the police & governments to my in -laws that are born again Christians, who can’t handle the fact that I don’t subscribe to their notions.
I couldn’t give a rats what they believe, if their happy ( in religion) I ain’t the one to question them and I never have.
But that doesn’t stop them questioning everything I stand for. They want me to be something I’m not and could never be.
They are control and I am chaos
Acceptance vs Resistance
If your happy with the way things are going in the general scheme of things ~ ok ~ Good!
But don’t judge other’s that don’t feel the same and don’t accept the current control.
The rebels, the misfits, the lawbreakers, the one’s that don’t conform, The ones that feel it in their core to resist and not accept .
It’s ok to, stand up for your beliefs whatever they may be.
I have been locked up, been before the courts, had the book thrown at me (literally) fined, harassed and assaulted by the law, protested and picketed for what I believe in.
Been threatened and intimidated by Corporations, taking pics of my house and vehicles
Did it worry me; No !!!
We have the power to say NO to what we do not accept or situations that insult our soul and knowing.
This is my truth
Hence the unfucking stage commenced to unfuck myself from all dogma and rules
(still a work in progress)
I’m questing now, not searching: A quest to for balance : To balance the religion brainwashing (patriarchal) and New age brainwashing (Feminine)
To balance my masculine and feminine
To balance my left and right hemispheres of the brain
To honour and incorporate both in my daily practices. That’s my goal
To stand up for those that can’t or need help including myself to honour my divine masculine, and be righteous in my divine anger/protection if needed from the father
To show compassion and nurturing for those that need it including myself to honour the divine feminine, and be righteous in my own divinity and universal wisdom from the mother
That’s my Nirvana , will I ever reach it ?
Have no idea, but I do know…I’m going to have a most excellent adventure in trying.
Ever feel the need to escape? Pack up hit the road? Sell everything and travel?
Live by the stars and moon . Wake up with the sun? Throw away the watch?
Yep! The roads been calling : loudly. Has been for years but somehow I always made excuses .
From stability of income to somewhere to lay our roots.
I think you know that “stuck” feeling. I absolutely loathe it. And the feeling is multiplying.
I want to live wild and not know where the next day will take me.
The thought of selling everything and hitting the road fills me with so much peace.
“Innate things” are weighing me down. All I need is the earth and my body to survive.
I can feel myself becoming free as I imagine the roads and the journeys.
I have released the fear of the unknown and welcomed it. No fixed address…geez I love the sound of that.
A home on wheels that will take me to the next adventure of a amazing sunrise or sunset.
It runs in our blood, the gypsy wanderers. My Nan, My mother. The great unknown.
I went to the caravan and camping show yesterday at the show grounds in Melbourne. Surrounded by grey nomads and young families chasing the road adventures.
The community exists if you want it. The unspoken look of : Yeah,I get you see you on the road.
There is no need for sales people to come after you. They get it. The dream sell's itself. Talking to one bloke he uttered “I sell freedom”
Freedom is free, he just sell's vehicles of purpose. The dream is what get's you there.
Follow your dreams,chase what makes you happy. See you in unknown.
I have had a hiatus from healings, readings and anything remotely connected to this work for over a year now, sometimes you need to get lost in your own path to understand learning, healing and grow stronger in the quite moments.
I used to panic and think I should be doing healings. Truth is I was torn. I am a healer, yet my care factor to give healings has been Zero. The room is set up, yet I can’t find the motivation or energy.
I believe last year was a transformative year for many of us. A lot of questions where raised as to what and where we are going? Lot’s of life path stuff.
I still have no motivation to do healings or readings.
I reflected back and realised I've been healing/Reading for a long time now. I would read for friends around the kitchen table. I have always done hands on healing for family and my children, since I can remember - it was a part of our life. I still do (very sporadic) healings on my family and close friends and that’s about all I can manage these days.
If you have to force it. Probably not what your soul needs at that moment in time.
I learnt a lot last year about myself by just honouring and taking a break, which I needed and by being honest of what I didn't want.
What do you want to do? How hard that is question?
Unless you are clear and know. It’s a hard question to answer.
I could never answer it concisely, too many bloody outcomes my mind would meltdown.
I started by eliminating things I didn’t want, for me that was easier.
Doing healings and readings happened to be at the top of the list.
Rather than doing healings I have been teaching and training, which I adore.
I have been following this path and it has led to so many magical moments, teachings from mamma earth, animal brothers and spirit dreams.
My mind got in the way and I thought “I should be” doing something “spiritually”.
Fact is I already was and am.
I’m doing something I love: Simple.
Will I return to Healings one on one? I don’t know? Can’t foresee it at this stage.
I don’t know where I will be in a year from now, who does?
My husband and I are thinking about selling everything we own and travelling around Australia in the not too distant future. Another twist in the crooked path…
Follow the signs and synchronicities that come your way with a open heart, you never know where it may lead you.
#Sharing below some magical moments :)
Surrounded by 3 women in a room looking at them my eyes can’t focus..my eyes are blurry . I am telling them I can’t see properly. I am scared and feel light headed. My eyes want to close, but I know when they do, I will go into the abyss. I can’t fight it anymore and as my eyes close I am in the dark, free falling into peace and nothingness. Surrounded by nothing, yet everything
Surrendering into unknown , free
A student found a turtle at his home, he asked around his neighbourhood and no one had "lost ' a turtle. I told him I would have take him.
I didn't realise , until I got him that he was a Eastern long neck or snake neck turtle. Such a beautiful, wild creature. He belonged in the wild. He is a protected species. We took him to the Vet on the advice of Wildlife Victoria and after a once over ...released him back into the wild ♥
Turtle teachings for walking your path
The turtle symbolizes our peaceful walk on this earth. It represents the path we take as we embark on our journey through life. In contrast to emotional or spiritual development occurring in bursts, the way of the turtle anchors our personal unfolding in a slow, more grounded series of steps and longer cycles of transformation.
The turtle is associated with our physical and embodied evolution on the earthly plane.
Call this spirit animal for help to be more grounded. You can also get help slowing down and pacing yourself, so you can take your next step with more confidence.
Having the turtle as totem means that you have an affinity with the ancient wisdom of the earth. You are naturally tuned into the elements, land, plants, people and animals.
You carry your home on your back figuratively speaking and feel at ease wherever you are
The turtle symbolism is characterized by the association with the Earth and earth symbols of groundedness and patience:
By Elena Harris, SpiritAnimal.info Editor
Thank you Turtle :)
"If you look at the cycles of the moon, it starts as a thin crescent and then gradually waxes until it becomes full; then it gradually wanes back into another crescent and then it is gone. The moon reflects sunlight like humans reflect information. We wax and wane and when we become full moons, our egos are full. We think we have this knowledge when in fact, the information we have is pure. And how it reflects or shines off of us, is something we take credit for as though the moon could take credit for its brightness when, in fact, it is only reflecting light from the sun. We have to understand that we are ego-less just as the moon is without light. It and we are simply reflectors. The ego is not responsible for the information. It can reflect the information in creative ways, but the information itself is pure." -Maynard James Keenan
“One woman is a tiny divine spark in a timeless sisterhood tapestry collective;
All of us are Wild Women.”
― Jan Porter, Soul skin
I Just recently saw a Psychic medium. It was a Fabulous Reading too. Unbeknownst to her I had been Journeying the previous night in sacred space with a trusted friend. And saw a gaping hole in my solar plexus. Attached at the other end by a toxic relationship. The cords looked like a tree trunk. I was gobsmacked.
1 .That I had let it happen. 2 I gave my power away
I had been able to see this for other people, but never really for myself. What I saw was a big wake up call. The Fact that the Psychic saw it too, was more confirmation for me. In all her years , she had never seen anything like it, she exclaimed! In all my years I’d never seen anything like it either! Epic is a word that comes to mind. Imagine The Imagery of what basically looked like tree trunk going through my stomach..yeah Epic!
I did some healing around it and forgave the person and myself.
But I had done it. I gave my power away to a person that obviously feeds off it. I had let them feed off me. WTF was I thinking? It took 2 years for the realisation of this to come to a head. I am not blaming it all on this person. I have to take responsibility for my own actions as well. Tinged with anger and a sadness..this goes back eons..can anyone say past life?
Fear and control issues make people do silly things. Either consciously or unconsciously . I got a universal slap in the head..Pay attention!
I had been hearing the words in my head”take your power back” hmmm I’m a bit slow. Since I have, my creative force has returned 3 fold. My doubts have vanished, and I feel clear and present. Its quite obvious that the solar is the powerhouse of confidence, shine and creative force. Never let anyone take it. Lesson learned
Giddy UP !!
How is everyone faring post Chinese New Year?
I went to a water blessing ,shamanic healing ceremony last night ~Held by the fabulous Julia & Tony from Scared Familiar Such strong Medicine! All that were present were blissed & blessed with their amazing Gift. I am fortunate to count Julia & Tony as my friends. Their innate wisdom and medicine gift they have to share is truly magical. Its a honour to be part of their Clan.
If you have never experienced Sacred Familiar's work. I encourage you to pop on over and have a look at the website. (Click on Link to go to website)
The last 2 years featured quite strongly in the journey for me :deep water energy ,combined with the farewell of the water snake who graciously made a appearance and farewelled us gently and beautifully. The lessons and gifts she brought were amazing and her wisdom was one of release, rebirthing and honoring the process. Manifestations of the past dissipated as the wise woman
An Cailleach helped with the final stage's of the journey.
We welcomed in the new with Love and grace in our hearts, and sent it back out to complete the circle.
How much I released is anyones guess. I also had insight to how much power we inadvertently give away to people and situations. It was a bit of wake up call for me to realise that I had also been feeding into "power" games in certain areas. No judgment , it is was it was..past tense. I am full of gratitude for seeing this clearly and in perspective .
As we release the last of the Water Snake lessons, don't be too hard on yourself..It may not be pretty or even nice. But definitely worth going into the bottomless well and finding the peace that resides within, once you integrate your truth, honesty and integrity :PRICELESS.
Breaking free :)
Hail & Welcome The Year of the Horse !
Shining & Rocking On
As the year of the black water snake comes to a close,I find myself reflecting on what a year it has been! Hard , easy and everything in between. Lessons and opportunities abound, however perceived.
A shedding of the old and rebirth of new. This year has been a state of constant shedding for many.
Revisiting past issues and peeling back the layers..to see more clearly.Questions of faith, life path vocation and ultimately living and honouring your own truth, not that of others.Its been deep and full of wise moments..those aha moments when you go "I got this" Moments of fear and terror when you doubt your own wise counsel. Shedding and regenerating.
Letting go of people and past situations that are no longer conjucive to your journey. Endings and beginnings on so many levels. I've been asking what I've learnt from this year.. so much and more to come.
As the year closes and winds down, reflect back with gratitude and honour all that taken place this year. You have grown stronger, wiser and are vibrating at a higher frequency being true to you.
The Year of the horse beckons to all~ Wild and free ahhh what an adventure it will be..Coming out and shining after a deep year ♥
Time to rock that shit !