Hail and welcome the last day of 2015 !
What a year it's been.. I rose to watch the sunrise on the last day of the year. Death of one year and rebirth of the new year coming, with a sense of anticipation.
I can't do new year resolutions: because I'm shit at it and never follow through, too much pressure and really who needs that!
New Year resolution :
I'm going to lose weight: The rebel in me then decides to eat every fucking thing in sight.
I'm going to (try ) to Stop swearing........./././ F$%K
Fail on the New Year resolutions.
I'd rather spend the last day reflecting on the year that's been: what I've learnt and what I haven't.( Then I'm ready for the motherfucker in the new year )
Taking stock and giving myself a pat on the back when required, or kicking my ass when needed on things I could've handled better.
Blessing it all and letting it go :)
Globally and personally it's been a epic year. So much has come to pass. On the world stage, we have witnessed atrocities and humans at their worst. Also humans at their very best,so contrary.
I will not subscribe to FEAR because at it's heart it's still a wonderful world and I'm grateful for still being topside.
On a personal level, I have realised many things about myself, the world and my surroundings.
Number 1 biggie:
At home I've had children( well 3 adult children) return from their ventures of moving out of home a few years back, they all returned to the nest this year, staggered and in stages. I had one move back in and one move out on the same day!
They are different from their experience's of being away (maybe I'm different?) and appreciate home. It's been lovely. Change is constant and this year I've really learnt to go with flow. Maybe it's just because I'm getting older and have less fucks to give ? Who know's?
Number 2 biggie :
Teaching, yes I actually said it! I am a teacher, earlier in the year that would have stuck in my throat , I would have choked on it...no kidding.
I love going to "work " and Teaching. I'm quite good at it :) (apparently) hahaha
It has been transforming on so many levels. Because I essentially gave up healing work to teach , it was a bit conflicting to me at first. I then realised that it hasn't changed, just in a different arena.
2016 is uncertain , new, fresh and exciting. Make it yours. I intend to make it mine.