Sometime reflecting on your practice kicks you in the ass fair and square.
Been mainstreaming it, much to my horror! The healings whilst good and awesome (hey, it’s my blog and I can write that :D )
Felt somewhat lacking?? Totally from my perspective, not my clients.
Was questioning why I felt a little bit on auto pilot, when I rely on intuition and claim no two healings are the same.
Well wouldn’t you know it, they started becoming simular. I noticed it and went WTF???
That’s not how I roll? Bit devastated really.
Then that epiphany moment and some clarity from my daughters helped me see what was going on. It appears that with my family and certain people I know, I am truly me when it comes to healings.
I'm taking power animal retrievals, Shadow work, removing blocks and attachments. Journeying and in full trust of the medicine.
I've been Main streaming it, yes utterly and totally. Why ?
I was pulling back from my clients and not trusting what I was doing. I wasn't giving them all of me, for fear of scaring them with the way I work. Also probably a fear of being judged too if I am completely honest. A couple of special clients have lifted the veil during the healings and have seen me in my glory. One freaked out and the other thought it was awesome.
I can be scary when in the true healing Zone. I walk between the worlds. I can Chant, my voice is not my own. My Drum will take on a life of its own. My reflection Changes in the dull light and sacred ambiance of the room. I have often looked up and seen my shadow reflected on the wall and it’s not me. I have 1000 arms and hands. I see serpents next my head, helping me raise the Kundalini.
I see the shadow and where I need to illuminate it with light. I see the grief and feel the pain. And when I’m in full witchdoctor mode, it’s hardcore.
Time to be hardcore with every healing that comes my way. No more pulling back. I trust that those that need this type of healing will find their way to my door.